Reflection

Genetically, human beings are wired to analyze. It is in our nature. It gives us a sense of justification for the things that "are" in and about our world. Everyone goes about it in different ways. Whether it be a casual review of our weekend activities or a spiritual awakening to one's purpose in life, we will at some point look at ourselves and say, "This is good" or "Something needs to change."

Traditionally, American culture becomes engrossed, if not obsessed with this inward analysis around the beginning of the year. New Year's brings about the opportunity to re-start your life. To say, "This year will be different." The proverbial do-over from childhood. The biggest task in the redo, however, is justifying why it didn't change from last year.

I find that birthdays are my time to reflect. I mean it makes sense. I can look back and say I've been on this earth X - many years. Now what the crap have I accomplished? Yesterday was my 25th birthday. A milestone in every sense of the word. I've transitioned from my young adult stage, free of concern or real world troubles and found myself in the monotony that is the working world.

I've decided that my life needs a change. I know that I'm not happy. But what can I do? There is no new diet, fad, or "Purpose of a Driven Life" that can make the changes I need. I have succumbed to the fact that I need a complete face lift as my career goes. But where do I go? How will I know what God intends my vocation to be? I spent most of yesterday pondering those thoughts. Sundays are really good days to reflect. The Cowboys are usually playing terribly so there's nothing better to do on a lazy day.

I don't know where I'll be 3 months from now, but I am aware of one true reality; I need a do over.