Amazed

Today is the best day of my life......and tomorrow will be better.

A good friend of mine has this outlook on life. It's a nice way to look at your life........when you're not an auditor. I'm pretty confident that if I gathered up all the bad events in my life, cumulatively they could not sniff the day I've had today. That sounds a bit harsh but I really don't feel like I can put into words how disappointed I am with the way this day has gone. I feel like I'm in a rut. Like I'm living a life that is someone else's and I'm just sitting here watching it deteriorate.

You know that feeling when you lose something? That helpless, lost feeling? I feel like I have one possession to my name.....my soul. Let's say, for comparative purposes, that my soul is a piece of gold. Its the one thing I have to call my own. Now picture yourself standing on a cliff overlooking the ocean. All of sudden you drop your lone piece of gold. The feeling you get watching it fall helplessly to the abyss, is how I feel today.